December 6, 2023
TIME: 20min — SERVINGS: 1
TOUCH - a scalding hot shower. so warm it scorches your scalp and leaves red streaks where your hair falls on your body. keep one arm outstretched outside of the shower, the one with the most recent tattoo. you’re not supposed to get them into too warm water. trust me that water is too warm.
SEE - close your eyes. shut them tight. tighter. until your temples hurt. until you cant tell if it’s water or tears that streak your face.
SMELL - use that scrub you got when you left your last job. the one you never opened. smear the salt on your skin. rub until the smell is pungent enough to peel away the insides of your nose.
HEAR - put the speaker you got with your first paycheck seven years ago just barely around the corner of the tile box that is your shower. let the music reverberate on the walls. frantically click the volume buttons until it beeps to signal you’re at the loudest. put on a song with as many instruments and complicated tracks as you can.
TASTE - scream the song. scream until you taste blood in your mouth. scream until you feel your vocal cords rumble. scream until you cough the phlegm thats been clogging your voice.
step out — peek in the mirror — that is you — you are new.