Bigger and bigger and bigger

Escapril V - spiral

It’s warm enough to sit at my window in a t-shirt and get slightly high until inspiration hits and I’m remembering what it’s like to have enough vitamin d in my system (which apparently is around 5 times my current levels).

All I write about these days is summer and nostalgia and run on sentences that mimic the tracks in my mind.

They morph so fast, from memories of running barefoot on green grass as a child to escape the dragon living on the trampoline and discovering as a teen that I could crack open my roof window just enough to snuggle through and go sit on the black slates and stare at the stars.

Then I remember why I was escaping to the roof and how many times I thought of staying and slipping but goddamn life is picking up the pace finally and I don’t feel so happy that I’m scared it’s gonna go away, I feel content and excited for the next few months and wow I’m glad I didn’t slip when my world was only as big as my backyard.

My legs are always bruised but that’s about the only thing that hasn’t changed and I might not always know if the spiral in my mind will go up or down tomorrow but the one thing I am certain of is that its going to get bigger and bigger and bigger.

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